5.5.1. Category 1: The Everyday Experiences of Anti-Black Aggressions
While scholars have conceptualized aggressions through various terms such as microaggressions (
Pierce 1974) and racial microaggressions (
Sue et al. 2007), we use the term anti-Black aggressions (
Hines 2024) to describe the experiences shared by Black student respondents.
Hines and Wilmot (
2018) sought to recenter Blackness in the conversation of micro and macro racial aggressions, and describe anti-Black aggressions as, “intentional and unintentional acts of racial discrimination, bias, and exclusion that are aimed at Black people and are manifested through interpersonal interactions, gestures, speech, and spatially” (as cited in
Hines 2024, p. 217). Their model proposes that anti-Black aggressions operate across various levels and include anti-Black microaggressions, anti-Black institutionalized racism, and anti-Black macroaggressions (as cited in
Hines 2024, p. 217). The respondents provided thirty-one examples of challenges they faced at the university related to their Black identity that were coded as anti-Black aggressions. There were an additional five examples of each of anti-Black aggression coded under the “on university campuses,” and the “in the classroom themes,” and every example of bullying and physical intimidation (
n = 10) offers examples that we elevate to generalized anti-Blackness. We describe and analyze those below, grouped into various subthemes.
Students’ descriptions of anti-Black aggressions included the pervasive use of the “N-word” and “name-calling” primarily by athletic staff, including coaches; professors and guest speakers in the classroom; in social settings, by teammates; and non-Black peers’ unapologetic use of the “N-word” (name-calling) was reported by several respondents. Within the classroom, students shared, “Professor used N-word multiple times, I made a complaint, she mentioned that ‘someone must have been very offended by the [word]’ and looked directly at me.” While another student stated, “I had to speak up about the situation, and my professor did not acknowledge the situation until the next day, after I emailed him about the guest speaker using the N-word in class.” The use of the “N-word” by coaches and teammates in the athletic department was noted by several respondents, with one student recalling, “My coach saying the N-word while lecturing the team about social media.” Pervasive use within athletics also included the following two examples: “My coach saying the N-word made me feel uncomfortable,” and a student who indicated, “Boys on my team saying N-word during practice makes me upset and uncomfortable.”
Unfortunately, there were other reports of the unapologetic use of the “N-word” by peers in class and socially. Some of these responses include, “Being the only Black woman in multiple classes, hearing the N-word used freely by non-Black students,” and “I’ve had many instances of Hispanic students using the N-word freely, then singling me out with explanations as to why they said it.” Another student reported, “My old white friend whispered the N-word with ‘er’ in my ear for no reason and tried calling me the N-word multiple times.” Students also reported that use of the “N-word” extended to their experiences with university-affiliated fraternal organizations, with one student stating, “SAE [Sigma Alpha Epsilon fraternity]
3 members calling me and friends the N-word multiple times.” The charter of the SAE fraternity at SWRU was revoked in 2013 over hazing, unauthorized parties, and other issues (
Da 2015). A new, active chapter of SAE was established in the fall of 2021, and it appears that students are still expressing concerns. This aligns with SWRU’s climate survey results from 2023, where Black students listed fraternities and sororities as one of the top five places where they felt unsafe on campus (
Zerai 2023).
Spatially, anti-Black aggressions operated on the campus as Black student respondents described experiences of having only one or very few Black faculty, including their own experiences of being the only one or one of a very few students (in a course, lab, department, or college). One student expressed, “I’ve only had one Black woman professor, and that was from my [American Sign Language] class.” If climate concerns are unaddressed, students can also be subject to witnessing the mistreatment of faculty who share their characteristics, which at times contributes to a vicarious experience. Examples of this include student responses such as, “Not being able to have any Black professors in my core classes; would like to see more diversity.” As well as descriptions of being the only Black student in class, teams, and groups.
The survey responses also included several examples of disparate treatment and exclusion in classrooms and with faculty. One respondent noted: “I believe that some professors don’t take you that seriously here when it comes to help in the class as a Black student compared to my other white counterparts.” Another student added, “My challenges are being a STEM student. You do not get a welcoming smile and do not feel welcomed when asking for help. I feel like I’m being judged off of looks.” While others described faculty making assumptions about their academic ability, including,
“I often have the level of my graduate studies questioned, with a generalization made that I am a master’s student. Though I value all levels of education, I don’t appreciate people assuming my level of education. It’s like they can’t even fathom I am a current doctoral candidate.”
Finally, some respondents reported feeling disrespected, bullied, and physically intimidated by faculty, staff, and non-Black peers. These reports included stereotyping Black students as the same person, mispronouncing names, and peers of other races seeking a “pass” for saying racist things. An example follows,
“The challenges I face pertain to being treated (1) with any other “typical” racism expected of people who harbor anti-Black beliefs and (2) like a zoo exhibit by some people because I am Black and middle class. While I recognize the privilege of that situation, many people I have met at [SWRU] treat me like I am uppity because their understanding of Blackness is based on stereotypical media representations that often do not include positive representations of Black people—regardless of their class and education status.”
Another student reported feeling exploited for their race when the team applied for and was awarded a grant because the respondent was on the team. They expressed, “my identity was exploited to apply for diversity-based grants that I had little to no part in it. At the time, I ‘took one for the team’ but in retrospect, I feel used. I helped the department make money but received no credit or appreciation.” Other students reported bullying and physical intimidation where a person used their physical presence or actions to make them feel threatened, scared, or intimidated without physical contact. “I was verbally abused by another student who was racist and violent. It happened throughout a span of us getting to know each other, and throughout the time, I slowly developed anxiety, stress, and my disorder worsened.” Another student reported, “I have been stalked and harassed by a master’s student (female Latina identity) in the xxx program that I supervised and supported in [our lab]”.
The findings within the collective theme, The Everyday Experiences of Anti-Black Aggressions, highlight the various ways in which anti-Black violence manifests through daily experiences at the interpersonal level through Black students’ interactions with non-Black peers and organizationally through aggressions in the university classrooms, departments, fraternal organizations, and athletic spaces. Additionally, these experiences also highlight the way anti-Black aggressions are perpetuated at an institutional level, where some of the actors named in these challenges are SWRU staff and faculty who are charged with promoting the mission of the university. Unfortunately, these findings reveal the way servingness has not yet been actualized for some Black students who described racialized slurs, isolation, stereotypes/assumptions, disrespect, bullying, and physical intimidation as part of their daily challenges while attending SWRU.
5.5.2. Category 2: The Politics of Belonging
As noted in the demographic descriptors of this study, Black student respondents had several intersectional identities (i.e., heritage, gender, and sexuality), creating unique intra-group experiences of the university. Respondents described challenges associated with these intersectional identities, including hyper-visible/invisible Black culture, and tensions in feelings of belonging and connection across the campus. Survey respondents provided fifty-one examples related to these topics as challenges faced, and one additional example coded as assumptions.
Strayhorn (
2019) defines belonging in HEIs as “students perceived social support on campus, a feeling or sensation of connectedness, and the experience of mattering of feeling cared about, accepted, respected, valued by, and important to the campus community or others on campus such as faculty, staff, and peers” (p. 24). Positive feelings of belonging are linked to student success and the likelihood of students persisting in their academic pursuits (
Strayhorn 2019). Building on these concepts, we define belonging and building connection as statements that indicate an affinity for a place or situation or a lack thereof; and statements that indicate the process of fostering relationships and creating a sense of belonging among individuals who share common interests, goals, or values. Several respondents disclosed challenges in this area, sharing a lack of engagement, representation, and connection with their peers. One student stated, “I don’t feel welcome on campus, so I never participate in any activities,” while another shared they experienced a “lack of sense of belonging within courses.” Although SWRU is considered an HSRU, one student challenged its diversity, stating, “[SWRU]not really being a “diverse” campus when it comes to the inclusion of Black students. It feels like they solely rely directly on the BCC to do events that will include Black students.” For several who shared challenges to making friends in class and across the campus broadly, students who did describe positive experiences of belonging, noted that it was the BCC or other Black racialized spaces, such as Africana Studies, where belonging was affirmed. This was evident through statements such as, “I also had trouble finding other Black friends during my freshman year before I knew about all that the BCC has to offer.” Although the BCC served as a space of belonging, for one student, they shared time constraints as a challenge to accessing community, stating, “there is not enough time to connect with community or other Black and ethnic graduates.”
While findings around belonging and connection at large revealed a lack of inclusion outside of the BCC, these experiences became compounded when respondents shared how intersectional identities created additional challenges with faculty and peer interactions. Consistent with scholars’ (
Petrov and Garcia 2021;
Garcia and Cuellar 2023;
Stanislaus et al. 2024) calls to examine Black students’ intersectional identities at HSIs, respondents self-reported how their intersectional identities impacted their experiences. A doctoral student shared, “As a biracial, LGBTQ+ PhD student, I faced unique stressors, microaggressions, and repeated invalidations. Peers often insulted me, whether they realized it or not, and overreacted to my opinions, despite being asked to share them. […] Since finishing my coursework, I’ve seen these incidents decrease, but the damage done during those early years has been lasting.” Other students noted encounters with colorism, responding with “I’m so white passing […] I told a friend I’m Jamaican, and his eyes got wide,” and “I am Black when it is helpful for the other person, or I am white depending on how they want to see it. The group structures in these courses often failed to accommodate the complexity of our lived experiences.” The intersections of gender and Black identities were also noted by several respondents, particularly Black women. “I was walking on campus, and somebody shouted out the window “HEY LIZZO.” As a fat Black woman, this didn’t make me feel great,” said one student. Additional responses included statements such as, “Being sexualized as a ‘light-skin’ Black girl, I feel left out,” “as a Black woman in STEM, I constantly feel out of place,” and “Being the only Black woman in multiple classes.”
Interestingly, while there were sixteen Black affinity student organizations, including historically Black fraternities and sororities at the SWRU, one student shared challenges to visibility for Black men. This student reported, “Not enough heterosexual visible Black male leadership outside of Frats.” These responses reveal students’ awareness of being hyper-visible yet culturally invisible. We describe culture as the customs, arts, social institutions, and achievements of a particular nation, people, or other social group. Examples below illuminate the ways respondents perceived Black culture as being hyper-visible, yet invisible in terms of cultural expressions misunderstood or negatively perceived. Students described, “Department faculty and staff complimenting my hair and trying to touch it. It made me feel like an exotic pet, i.e., not good. Like I wasn’t really seen as part of the team,” and another stated, “Feels like our resources and cultural belongings stick out like a sore thumb. I come from a predominantly Black area, so it feels like we… our culture is treated like a zoo exhibit.” Other responses illustrate this tension, including students describing how their personal expression of Blackness as a student on campus was perceived as culturally mismatched by faculty and peers. “I feel like instructors, as well as other students, have certain expectations revolving around the way I would act or talk,” shared one student.
The findings within the collective theme, The Politics of Belonging, underscore the ways in which Black students describe their experiences of challenges in the classrooms, with peers, and in the larger university setting. While several of these statements overlap with how we have described anti-Black aggressions in the previous theme, we present these student responses as a separate theme to illustrate how navigating campus as a Black student and experiencing anti-Black aggressions converge to create challenges for spatial and interpersonal belonging within the institution, particularly when Blackness is met at the intersections of other identities. Conceptualizing servingness as an HSRU must then contend with how to mitigate and repair the politics of belonging for Black students (which include recognizing the intersections of Black student identity, i.e., gender, academic level) as these students describe a split experience of lack of belonging at the institution, yet affirming experiences with the BCC.
5.5.3. Category 3: Bearing the Weight of Representation
We describe representation as the customs, arts, social institutions, and achievements of a particular nation, people, or social group. For these students, representation consisted of being the only Black student in the class, team, or campus space. While we share respondents’ challenges that focus on representation across the campus, we do so with examples that highlight the weight of carrying representation as an underrepresented group, including the feelings associated with this and instances where self-advocacy was employed as a means of protecting themselves within an anti-Black campus culture. Some of these responses include statements such as, “being asked certain things or my input as the only Black person of color (POC) in class,” “being called out during talks regarding Black people,” and “existing as the only Black person in a class when talking about racial issues, people look to me to educate.” Similarly to the graduate student who noted challenges to belonging and connection, another graduate student expressed, “I also find myself to be the only Black graduate student in almost every class I take.”
One respondent shared their experiences of being the only one in social spaces, “I’m the only Black person in many of my friend groups, and that leaves me feeling out of place among them at times. It’s a tension I hold, understanding that Black folk are a minority here, while acknowledging my discomfort alone at times.” Several respondents described situations where they had to self-advocate and problem-solve for themselves and others on campus. These experiences ranged from encounters with the Equal Opportunity Office, the Dean of Students, financial aid, and the classroom. Examples include the following responses: “I had to transfer to a different research group because my advisor was prejudice[d] against my race and gender. Had to go to the [Equal Opportunity Office] and get a case on it,” and “I have encountered multiple issues in and out of my classes. I’ve been physically assaulted on campus. No one listened when I brought up my concerns.” One student described both their and another Black peer’s challenges with financial aid, reporting,
“I tried to apply for independent status on FAFSA
4, but it took almost a year to try and receive the status. The financial aid office kept giving me the wrong paperwork, asking for even more, even when I already turned in the paperwork they asked for […]. They claimed it’s because they must take the independent status very seriously. My friend, who is also a Black woman, had similar experiences. However, when my boyfriend (a white straight man) applied for the same status […]. He was able to get approved within a month or so.”
Although the first thematic section displayed the pervasive use of the “N-word” throughout several students’ responses, we bring the example back into this section to highlight the ways that one student had to navigate self-advocacy during that experience. Specifically, the student shared, “a guest speaker told a story about working with a client who used the “N-word.” When she told that story, she said it with the hard “er.” “I had to speak up about the situation, and my professor did not acknowledge the situation until the next day, after I email[ed] him.” Another respondent shared their experiences of self-advocacy while on a branch campus of the university. “[I] have experienced being targeted and microaggressions and open discrimination, not being heard and told I’m the one who needs to change, or ignored when I brought to higher-ups.” Unfortunately, these feelings of not being heard were also echoed by other respondents. One student indicated,
“I was being stalked and was trying to get [the university] to help since it was a student on campus. […] I went to the Dean of Students, and they basically just gave me paperwork that agreed neither one of us could speak to each other, instead of investigating […]. I even told them how this person was trying to sexually exploit me from different numbers and accounts, and they told me that it had to do with Title IX, that I had to be careful because they are mandated reporters, and it’s a much longer process to continue if it were a Title IX case.”
Another student reported, “I’ve experienced social stratification and microaggressions from other students. When this discriminatory behavior was brought to the university staff, nothing was done about it and myself and other students were basically told to take the high road.”
For many student respondents, these types of interactions led to additional triggered feelings. We describe triggered feelings as strong, often negative, emotional, or physical reactions to a stimulus that reminds an individual of a past trauma or difficult experience. While trigger-based distress, when racialized, can be considered a microaggression (
Bonilla-Silva 2021), we pull these feelings out separately so as to focus on the emotional reactions of encountering anti-Blackness. In contrast, the findings of anti-Black aggressions in the first thematic area explain the specific interactions that were experienced. Notably, since many of the experiences have already been described, this section provides context for the quotes while presenting examples of triggered emotions that are separate from the fully quoted interactions.
In response to the scenario of a student being exploited to secure a diversity-based grant, the student shared, “I took one for the team, but in retrospect, I feel used.” For the student respondent who discussed how professors and peers do not acknowledge them in the classroom, they added, “It’s pretty disheartening when this happens, especially since I feel intimidated by collaborative work to begin with. It discourages me from my academic performance and makes me feel rather isolated.” And while multiple students described their coach’s use of the “N-word”, one of them expressed, “[that it] makes me upset and uncomfortable.”
“Disappointing” was the term used to describe one respondent’s lack of engagement with Black faculty at the institution. For many respondents, isolation, discomfort, and feeling out of place were how they described their challenges as a Black student at the university. Students provided statements such as, “I constantly feel out of place,” “feeling racially isolated at times,” and “feeling out of place.” Additionally, comments also included, “feeling alone as there [are] very few people of color I see in a class every semester,” and “feeling like I have to over accommodate for other’s comfortability.”
Responses within the final theme, “Bearing the Weight of Representation,” demonstrate students’ keen awareness of their racial identity and isolation within SWRU. They described several resulting challenges, including disappointment, isolation, and difficulties with self-advocacy in campus departments designed to provide resources for students (i.e., Equal Opportunity Office, the Dean of Students, and financial aid). Consequently, the impact of being the only one, while also experiencing negative interactions, creates an additional burden or labor for Black students. This results in a signaling and devaluing of Black students within the institution, and evidence of an undeserving environment, particularly when considering responses that include interactions involving agents of the institution, such as coaches, faculty, and staff, or resource departments.
Collectively, these three thematic areas shed light on the experiences of anti-Black aggressions and the resulting challenges for belonging and representation while studying at an HSRU. The responses in this study illuminate that Black students’ experiences of anti-Blackness at SWRU are not isolated to particular areas of the institution but are, unfortunately, embedded across daily interactions at the interpersonal and organizational levels of the institution.