5.1. Fear: The Threat of a Definable World
For Heidegger, fear (
Furcht) is an affective experience that arises when one encounters something in the world that is fearsome or threatening: something that has as its kind of being either readiness-to-hand (
Zuhandenes), presence-at-hand (
Vorhandenes), or
Dasein-with (
Mitdasein). According to Heidegger, fear compels
Dasein to turn away from itself, thereby preventing
Dasein from being able to face its own existence. In Heideggerian terms, fear (
Furcht) is directed toward a specific, identifiable threat within the world. Unlike
anxiety, which discloses the indeterminate nothingness of
Being,
fear always has an object: a danger, obstacle, or limitation that can be located and named. Heidegger writes, “Shrinking back in the face of what fear discloses—in the face of something threatening—is founded upon fear; and this shrinking back has the character of fleeing.” [
3] (p. 230). Fear orients
Dasein toward these concrete dangers, revealing the possibilities of action and the limitations imposed by the world.
The narrator of “Tell Me Who to Kill” articulates an experience that resonates deeply with this Heideggerian structure. He reflects, “And it is as though because you are frightened of something it is bound to come, as though because you are carrying danger with you, danger is bound to come. And again it is like a dream” [
1] (p. 68). This captures the essence of fear’s anticipatory structure, which Heidegger describes as an “awaiting [that] lets what is threatening
come back [
zurtickkommen] to one’s factically concernful potentiality-for-Being” [
3] (p. 391).
For the narrator, fear arises from tangible constraints—precarity, his brother’s failures, and social hierarchies that narrow his possibilities. These are not abstract anxieties but pressing threats that drive practical action, such as leaving the West Indies to work relentlessly in London, even as they expose the limits of his agency within structures of oppression.
More personally, his hostility toward his brother is charged with fear and impotent rage. But he is unable to see the interlocking paths of
Enframing, which is regulating his brother’s future course of action. In the Heideggerian paradigm, his brother is a victim of “frenziedness of technology” [
30] (p. 35). His initial passion to become an aeronautical engineer is replaced by his love for computer programming. The narrator observes Dayo sleeping amid filth yet boasting of “preparing for the modern world”—that is, for the ‘Com-pu-ter pro-gram-ming’, a phrase he mockingly syllabifies as though his brother were an illiterate—and smoking expensive cigarettes [
1] (p. 97). Overwhelmed by resentment, the narrator imagines violent retribution but recoils before acting. Disoriented and on the edge of collapse, he exclaims: “I am taking one of you today. Two of us going today,” and feels the knife in his hand [
1] (p. 102). This is not a groundless existential crisis, but a fear directed at a specific, intolerable situation and the person who embodies it. However, the threat is so overwhelming that it leads to a paralyzing collision of emotions—humiliation, impotent rage, and a desperate wish for control—which immediately undoes itself. He feels “the strength run right out of me, my bones turning to wire in my arms” [
1] (p. 102). This fear is embodied within the ‘Who’ of the title “Tell Me Who to Kill” itself. Here, fear discloses the world as a place of imminent, concrete danger, but one in which the possibility of effective action is foreclosed, leading to a psychic collapse. This culmination of fear-driven paralysis bleeds into a fatalistic despair.
Thus, through a Heideggerian lens, fear in the novella functions to direct the narrator toward definable threats, simultaneously shaping his desperate actions and revealing the ultimate constriction of his possibilities within an oppressive world. In the metaphysical question of being, from Heidegger’s point of view [
32] (p. 110), first, he allows space for being, then he releases himself into the nothing—i.e., he liberates himself from those idols he and everyone cling—then he lets the sweep of his suspense take its full course. The idea of nihilism and negation overpowers him. The narrator concludes: “The life is over. I am like a man who is giving up. I come with nothing, I have nothing, I leave with nothing” [
1] (p. 101). In this state, his feeling of being a “free man” is the freedom of having nothing left to lose, a scorn of a world that has already defeated him through a series of specific, fear-inducing failures.
5.2. Anxiety: Fleeing in the Face of ‘Selfsameness’
In Heideggerian thought,
anxiety (Angst) is a fundamental mood that discloses the groundlessness of
Being. Unlike fear, which has a specific object, anxiety is characterized by an indeterminate threat that is “so close that it is oppressive and stifles one’s breath, and yet it is nowhere” [
3] (p. 231). This experience collapses the familiar, everyday world, revealing the “nothing” that underlies it and producing a feeling of ‘
uncanny’ (
Unheimlich)—
unhomelike—in one’s own existence [
3] (p. 233). For Heidegger, this unsettling disclosure is also a potential for authenticity, as it individuates
Dasein and presents it with the “freedom to choose itself” [
3] (p. 232). However, this anxiety is not nihilistic at all. It is very much part of
Being.
The narrator’s psychological state is a profound literary dramatization of this Heideggerian anxiety. His despair stems not from a single threat, but from the oppressive “selfsameness” of his conditions—a Heideggerian term denoting how the disclosive mood of anxiety and the disclosed reality of one’s existence are existentially intertwined [
1] (p. 233). From childhood, he is enclosed in a world of inescapable labor and familial limitation, images of which are enshrined in his memory: “the rain, the house, the mud, the field, donkey, the smoke from the kitchen” [
1] (p. 68). This world is his thrown facticity, and his anxiety is the disclosure of its totalizing, suffocating nature.
His response to this anxiety is a fallen flight into inauthentic care for his brother, Dayo. He takes on the familial burden as his own, proclaiming, “I get the ambition and the shame for all of them. The ambition is like shame, and the shame is like a secret, and it is always hurting” [
1] (p. 71). He sacrifices his own education and future, working tirelessly to support Dayo, bragging that “I feel I could kill anyone who make him suffer. I don’t care about myself. I have no life” [
1] (p. 67). In Heideggerian terms, he flees from his own anxious individuality by completely absorbing himself into the “they-self” of his family, a strategy that ultimately collapses.
Tragically, the intended escape to London becomes a new site of existential dislocation. The purposive life he sought dissolves into a directionless existence, symbolized by the dominant metaphor of aimless ‘walking.’ He first observes this in Dayo, who roams the city “with his book” but has “nowhere to go.” The narrator soon mirrors this restlessness, stating, “I HAVE NO WHERE to go and I walk now, like Dayo” [
1] (p. 101). This ceaseless, scorn-filled walking embodies anxiety’s disclosure of the world as an uncanny and meaningless space, stripped of its practical significance. As Heidegger notes, “We ‘hover’ in anxiety […] Anxiety robs us of speech” [
32] (p. 101), a sentiment echoed in the narrator’s silent, compulsive motion.
In this way, the narrator’s journey illustrates the full arc of Heideggerian anxiety. It first reveals the oppressive structures of his thrown existence, prompts a flight into inauthentic sacrifice, and ultimately culminates in a total disaster that leaves him exposed to the nothingness of his collapsed future. His anxiety, therefore, not only reveals his personal despair but also functions as a powerful disclosure of
Being in its primordial and unsettling openness. Hence the concept of nothing (
das Nichts) in Heidegger like ‘anxiety’ is not nihilistic.
Nothing is the ulterior aspect of being that constitutes the ultimate horizon for the emergence of beings in their meaningfulness [
33].
5.3. Boredom: The Nothingness of the Everydayness
In
The Fundamental Concepts of Metaphysics:
World, Finitude, Solitude (FCM), Heidegger distinguishes three different types of boredom. The first is becoming bored
by something (
Gelangweiltwerden von etwas), for example, an object, person, or state of affairs (FCM §19–23) [
34] (pp. 78–101). The second is being bored
with something (
Sichlangweilen bei etwas), where no clear source of boredom can be identified, yet the mood nevertheless persists (FCM §24–28) [
34] (pp. 106–131). The third and most fundamental form, profound boredom (
tiefe Langeweile) lies at the heart of Heidegger’s analysis. In it, nothing in particular is boring; rather, the totality of beings withdraws from
Dasein (FCM §29–41) [
34] (pp. 132–175).
Unlike the first two, profound boredom discloses an existential condition rather than a situational mood. Here, time becomes central: past, present, and future are no longer experienced as distinct but collapse into a monotonous unity. In the Heideggerian worldview, the three perspectives of time—
present,
having-been, and
future—are not lined up alongside one another, but originarily simply united in the horizon of time as such. Originarily, there is the
single and unitary universal horizon of time [
34] (p. 145). As Gelven notes, Heidegger, drawing on Kant’s views on time as both inner sense and imagination, saw profound boredom as a mood that reveals the very essence of temporality [
35] (p. 177). Heidegger encapsulates the meaning of profound boredom with a haunting question: “Do things ultimately stand in such a way with us that a profound boredom draws back and forth like a silent fog in the abysses of
Dasein?” [
34] (p. 78). This ‘silent fog’ manifests as a specific experience of time, which stretches unbearably. He argues:
This profound boredom is the
fundamental attunement. We pass the time in order to master it, because time becomes long in boredom. Time has become long for us […] We do not want to have a long time, but we have it nevertheless [
34] (p. 80).
Profound boredom thus functions as a “fundamental attunement,” detaching
Dasein from its everyday absorption and opening the possibility of authentic reflection. In his view, this profound boredom is linked with ‘homesickness’ as well. Freeman and Elpidorou summarize this condition as the withdrawal of beings, in which the passing of time itself disappears, merging past, present, and future into a singular temporality [
36] (p. 396).
The novella contains examples of all three types of boredom. Naipaul’s narrator exemplifies Heidegger’s gradations of boredom as his consciousness moves from ordinary distractions to existential emptiness:
- (a)
Gelangweiltwerden von etwas: Ordinary Boredom
The first type of boredom is evident in the narrator’s weary relationship with specific goals and memories. He is, for instance, bored by the very “ambition and shame” that fuels his desire for his brother Dayo to succeed who was going to break away; he was going to be a professional man.
From that first changed moment when he sees him, a small, smooth, fevered child lying on the “floor on a floursack spread on a sugarsack” [
1] (p. 67), faced with the reality of his rustic Indian background, he is overcome by the ‘ambition and shame’ to have Dayo succeed. It is also visible in the fact that the narrator was bored with the memory of daily routine of his father’s and his own life early life of hard work connected with the ‘donkey-cart’ and the ‘donkey’ [
1] (pp. 67–68), and the way Stephen, a joker and a mocker, finds his donkey ‘funny’ [
1] (p. 74). He was equally weary of his monotonous double-shift in London. His existence is reduced to relentless compulsion: bus rides, factory shifts, restaurant kitchens, basements. Life becomes an obsession: “I work and work and save and save and the money grow and grow, and when it reach two thousand pounds, I get stunned.” [
1] (p. 92). This joy was short-lived. In the end, he loses all he has accumulated, rendering his labour fruitless.
Another example is his encounter with his uncle Stephen’s surprise visit with his family to his house when the narrator’s existence becomes dominated by repetitive labour and failed aspirations. Boredom unfolds in the shape of anxiety. When Stephen comes with his daughters in his car and the narrator sees the car stopping, he—while his heart is failing—quickly realizes the messy conditions of his house. In a foolish way, he races up to sweep and straighten up the house. In the end, he behaves like his father, “not caring, ready to make a joke of everything, letting people know that we have what we have, and that is that”. Despite his efforts to shape his telos through work, the monotony of his existence underscores the futility of these actions. Finally, when they came, he could notice the scorn in the face of Stephen’s Christian wife and his Christian daughters [
1] (p. 76). In contrast to the directedness of the first type, situational boredom emerges from the monotony of everyday life.
- (b)
Sichlangweilen bei etwas: Situational Boredom
Such boredoms are visible in everydayness of life. The narrator encounters abundant instances of situational boredom in his daily life. He comes from a society in which the frogs croak and sing in the canal and the ditches, and nobody misses him [
1] (p. 77). The narrator’s story begins with his memory of deprivation in rural Trinidad. He feels the anguish and pain when he sees the differences between rich and poor:
For the rich and the professional, the world is not ordinary. I know, I see them. Where you build a hut, they build a mansion; where you have mud and a para-grass field, they have a garden; when you kill time on a Sunday, they have parties. We all come out of the same pot, but some people move ahead and some people get left behind. Some people get left behind so far they don’t know and they stop caring. Like my father [
1] (pp. 70–71).
This situation is further intensified when he recollects the temperament in the family. He comes from the shameful Indian background where his father has turned his own life into a ‘story and a joke’ and the irony is deepened by the fact that he has turned the life of his children into a ‘joke’. He even joked of his illiteracy [
1] (p. 71).
He wanders aimlessly, unwilling to return to the confines of home [
1] (p. 77). The narrator feels pity for his brother with his “labourer’s face sleeping on the narrow iron bed” [
1] (p. 95), and for the “smallness of the room” he is in without sunshine and with concrete wall outside. He notices “the dirtiness of his finger-nails and hands, the fatness at the top of his arms.” [
1] (p. 96).
The condition in England was no less inhospitable. When the narrator finally meets his long-lost brother and he enters the kitchen to prepare food for himself and his brother, he sees, the moment he turns on the light, cockroaches scatter everywhere, over dirty old stove and mash-up pot and pan. Even upstairs, there was continuous shouting, fighting, screaming, and cursing between the old white lady and her husband in full moon light until one of them shut the other outside [
1] (pp. 85–86). Finally, the narrative culminates in
tiefe Langeweile, or profound boredom, where time and meaning collapse entirely.
- (c)
Tiefe Langeweile: Profound Boredom
The narrative opens with the protagonist’s description of going to attend, in the present, his brother’s marriage in London, but the story unfolds episodically as there is a causal collapse of time, weaving together past and present. The narrator remembers a dreadful and insecure past in the Present Simple and Present Continuous Tense:
The cart is under the house and the donkey is in the pen at the back. The pen is wet and dirty with mud and manure and fresh grass mixed up with old grass, and the donkey is standing up quiet with a sugarsack on his back to prevent him catching cold. In the kitchen shed my mother is cooking, and the smoke from the wet wood thick and smelling [
1] (p. 66).
On another occasion, the narrator tries to remember a date when his brother was sick, he is not sure of it whether it was 1954 or 1955, and he is unable to put a place to it. But he exactly recalls his house and the road that leads to it [
1] (pp. 67–68).
This collapse of temporal order illustrates Heidegger’s claim that profound boredom unifies past, present, and future into a formless whole. In this state, the world is revealed as ultimately indifferent to human striving, disclosing its essential nullity. As Heidegger states, “there comes the point at which all knowledge and in particular all learned wisdom is of no further assistance” [
34] (p. 142). For the narrator, this profound encounter with nothingness—where time stagnates and meaning withdraws—culminates in a clear revelation of his ontological predicament.
5.4. Curiosity: The ‘Lust of the Eyes’ and Distracted Engagement
In Heidegger’s phenomenology, ‘curiosity’ (
Neugier) is an everyday mode of
Being tied to the superficial drive to see. He describes it as the “lust of the eyes” [
3] (pp. 214–216), a restless tendency that privileges spectacle and novelty over meaningful understanding. In this mode,
Dasein’s engagement with the world becomes distracted and fleeting, absorbed in appearances rather than grounded in authentic existence.
Curiosity thus distracts from one’s own possibilities, masking the deeper encounter with
Being as the deeper phenomenology of curiosity is one of unrest and agitation: “Curious
Dasein constantly uproots (
entwurzeln) itself”. “It disperses (
Zerstreuung) itself among worldly possibilities, without truly making any one of them one’s own.” [
37] (p. 195). At the same time, Heidegger reminds us that the impulse to “see” is linked to
care, showing that even curiosity participates in the structures of
Being10. He further observes that
idle talk often governs curiosity, dictating what one “must have read and seen,” and leaving it “
never dwelling anywhere”. Curiosity is “everywhere and nowhere” [
3] (p. 217).
The narrator exhibits this mode in his obsessive preoccupation with the success of those around him, particularly his younger brother. Personally, he could feel the inauthenticity of his existence because of the absence of realization of his dream: “I see people going away to further their studies and coming back as big men. I know that I miss out.” [
1] (p. 71). To fill the vacuum, he imagines Dayo’s education as the family’s only route out of labour and limitation. Receiving Stephen’s letter with a maple leaf inside, he envisions Stephen’s son in Montreal, walking on the pavement beside the black railing, furthering his studies, and happy among the maple leaves [
1] (p. 78). This vision becomes the template through which he longs to see Dayo’s future. His uncle Stephen—with his Christian name, his polished appearance—becomes a role model, a figure of progress and prosperity.
This vision becomes a consuming template for his brother’s future, pulling him into the state Heidegger terms ‘fallenness’ (
Verfallen). In this mode,
Dasein is absorbed in the ‘they,’ busily involved with what is “definite and positive” [
38] (p. 14), to avoid its own uncanny (
unheimlich) nature. In imitating Stephen’s devotion to his son, the narrator projects himself into a role of caretaker for Dayo, with a “hysterical attachment to his brighter, and worthless brother” [
39] (p. 67). Surrounded by ugliness and decay, he clings to Dayo’s beauty as if it were transcendent: “He is so pretty. If he grows, he will be like a star-boy, like Errol Flynn or Farley Granger […] The beauty in that room is like a wonder to me, and I can’t bear the thought of losing it” [
1] (p. 67).
While seemingly directed toward a higher purpose, the narrator’s preoccupation functions precisely as Heideggerian curiosity. It is an anxious, distracted engrossment in external details—a brother’s beauty, a cousin’s success—that serves to postpone the necessary confrontation with his own existential condition. Thus, his curiosity operates not as a path to understanding, but as a protective diversion, actively shielding him from the indeterminacy and nothingness at the core of his own life.
5.5. Idle Talk: Rum and Curry Chicken Talking
Heidegger identifies ‘idle talk’ (
Gerede) as a common mode of everyday
Being in which discourse circulates “groundlessly,” conveying information without fostering genuine understanding [
3] (pp. 212–213). This chatter allows individuals to remain absorbed in the world of appearances, postponing a confrontation with their own authentic possibilities: “What is said-in-the-talk gets understood; but what the talk is about is understood only approximately and superficially.” [
3] (p. 212). He, further, argued that idle talk is constituted by
gossiping and
passing the word along [
3] (p. 212). Even though he considered
idle talk a positive trait—not to be made fun—he argued that “idle talk has been uprooted existentially, and this uprooting is constant.” [
3] (p. 214)
11. In the novella, the narrator’s social world is saturated with such
idle talks, which reinforces his inauthenticity and deepens his existential entrapment.
The narrator is continually subjected to the
idle talk of others. His uncle Stephen—a symbol and victim of modernity—embodies this phenomenon. Stephen’s promises, particularly his pledge to take the narrator’s brother Dayo abroad for studies, are revealed as empty chatter. The narrator cynically—and accurately—dismisses them: “Stephen is just talking, or rather, it is the rum and curry chicken talking” [
1] (p. 75). Heidegger makes one more important observation that
idle talk is not confined to vocal gossip, but it is detectable in writing too, where it takes the form of “‘scribbling’”. In such cases, gossip feeds on “superficial reading” [
3] (p. 212). The text offers a classic example of this type when Dayo’s engagement with education becomes a form of
idle talk. When the narrator confronts his brother about his study—his aim was to become an aeronautical engineer—he flatly disappoints him by saying that education is not an easy thing. However, he is preparing for the modern world by taking a course in computer programming [
1] (p. 97). However, the next day he sees an advertisement for the same course in the carriage of the train compartment: “PREPARE YOURSELF FOR TOMORROW’S WORLD WITH A COURSE IN COMPUTER PROGRAMMING”. He is ontologically filled with disgust: “But the hate fill my heart. I want to see his face frightened again” [
1] (p. 98).
Naipaul’s depiction of the burgeoning craze for computer programming among disillusioned youths in 1971 is particularly noteworthy. He underscores how the capitalist class, alert to shifting market demands, swiftly recognised the commercial promise of this new technological field. Their strategic placement of advertisements in suburban trains reveals a calculated attempt to shape the ambitions of the younger generation, signalling the early commodification of technological skill in a rapidly modernising world. Read through the lens of Heidegger’s critique of modernism—especially his notion of Enframing (Gestell)—this moment becomes emblematic of how technological thinking reorganises human aspirations. For Heidegger, modern technology reduces both nature and human beings to mere “resources” awaiting optimisation. Naipaul’s scene reflects precisely this logic: the youths are interpellated not as individuals with existential possibilities but as potential units of labour to be channelled into the expanding technological marketplace. What appears as opportunity is, in Heideggerian terms, a mode of ordering that subtly conditions the young to perceive value only through marketable skills, thus revealing the deeper ontological enclosure imposed by modern technological culture.
This environment of empty discourse shapes the narrator’s own mode of being. He internalizes the values of the “they,” becoming obsessed with money as a source of empowerment. His life becomes a monologue of financial fantasy, what Michael Gelven would call an “inauthentic expression” that finds the world “interesting” but never personally relevant [
35] (p. 107). The narrator confesses, “The money make me feel strong. The money make me feel money is easy […] The money make me feel that London is mine” [
1] (p. 90). This is not a grounded plan but a secret vision, “of buying up London”, a chatter of the mind that entraps him in a cycle of hope and despair [
1] (p. 94). The culmination of this
idle talk occurs when, after losing his savings, he feels to “start to bleed” [
1] (p. 93).
Dasein is disclosed to him in a profound way. He is a witness to the prosecution of bourgeois individualism, and the glimpse of reverse migration is lurking on his mind:
But now the money gone and everything gone and I only have this suit, and it is smelling. But everything does smell here. At home, at home, windows are always open and everything get clean in the open air. Here everything is locked up [
1] (p. 92).
I am going to make a lot more money, Frank. I am going to make more money than you will ever make in your whole life, you white bitch. I will buy the tallest building here. I will buy the whole street.
But even as I talk I know it is foolishness. I know that my life spoil and even I myself feel like laughing [
1] (p. 70).
In this moment, the narrator is acutely aware that he is producing
idle talk. He speaks the language of grandiose success dictated by a fallen world, even as he recognizes its absolute groundlessness. He perfectly illustrates Karsten Harries’s point that, “Caught up in idle talk, man is shut up in a prison which he himself has fashioned” [
41] (p. 160). His own words become the bars of his cage, preventing an authentic confrontation with the ‘spoiled’ reality of his existence.
5.6. Ambiguity [Zweideutigkeit]
In Heidegger’s account, ambiguity [
Zweideutigkeit] arises in everyday existence where it becomes impossible to distinguish genuine understanding from its superficial imitation. He describes a state where “everything looks as if it were genuinely understood, genuinely taken hold of, genuinely spoken, though at bottom it is not; or else it does not look so, and yet at bottom it is” [
3] (p. 217). This ambiguity pervades the world of Naipaul’s narrator, destabilizing his relationships, his idols, and his very sense of self.
First, ambiguity corrupts the narrator’s perception of social success and status. His entire family engages in a paradoxical worship of his uncle Stephen—an adopted name—for his “progressiveness”. He visits them unannounced because, in view of his father, “Stephen is glad to get away from that modern life sometimes”. The narrator’s mother would be seen “chasing and killing a chicken right away” in his honour, even though whatever the family did, he mocked [
1] (p. 74), because he wanted them to be “progressive” as well [
1] (p. 75).
Within a Heideggerian framework, Stephen emerges as an emblem of the modern world picture. For Heidegger, “world view” does not mean a view of the world, but rather the world understood as view—a representational stance in which beings appear only insofar as they can be grasped, assessed, and positioned. To be “in the picture,” therefore, signifies possessing the requisite know-how, orientation, and readiness demanded by modernity [
42] (p. 350). Stephen’s entire temperament is shaped by this representational mode: arriving unannounced in his car, mocking his brother’s domestic life and the narrator’s donkey, and offering hollow assurances in an attempt to align himself with bourgeois individualism.
The narrator feels ashamed later to think of Stephen as “a big man” [
1] (p. 81). Stephen’s universe revolved around his son, and who was treated like a prince [
1] (p. 81), who has “gone foolish”. His world of enlightened modernity and bourgeoisie individualism came to a grinding halt: “The Prince is not coming” [
1] (p. 84).
This confusion is compounded by the case study of a wealthy-seeming neighbour, whose two-storey concrete house and polished appearance the narrator studies with reverence—“the hair he comb, the shirt his hands button, the shoes his hands lace up” [
1] (pp. 71–72). He is convinced that he embodies luck and prosperity. Yet after the man’s mysterious death, he discovers that the neighbour was never rich at all [
1] (p. 73).
In both cases, social appearances are profoundly deceptive, perfectly illustrating Heidegger’s point that things look as if they are genuine, though at bottom they are not.
This ambiguity extends into the narrator’s most personal relationships, distorting his brother’s identity and his own. The central deception of the novella is Dayo’ supposed academic progress in London, which is exposed as a lie when the narrator discovers his brother has fled his lodgings owing rent [
1] (p. 86). Dayo’s confession—“I don’t have confidence, brother. I lose my confidence”—shatters the image of the successful student [
1] (p. 87). This personal ambiguity is mirrored in the narrator’s own voice. The narrator was happy that his brother learned the art of speaking with a good accent while living in Stephen’s house. He has developed a new way of talking:
He don’t talk fast now, his voice is not getting up and down, he use his hands a lot, and he is getting a nice little accent, so that sometimes he sound like a woman, the way educated people sound. I like his new way of talking, though it embarrass me to look at him and think that he my brother is now a master of language [
1] (p. 80).
In England, the same quality he hated. He loses confidence in London and talks like a little boy. He makes him feel that something is wrong with him: “that someone who is using words in this way is not right. He still have his accent, but he is like a man who have no control over his speech” [
1] (p. 95).
Finally, a rootless and arbitrary sense of aspiration within the family itself underscores this pervasive ambiguity. When the narrator questions Dayo about his future career, their mother suddenly interjects, “I always feel I would like him to do dentistry.” The narrator is baffled, commenting that “This is her intelligence […] she never think of dentistry or anything else for Dayo until this moment” [
1] (p. 80). This moment of pure, groundless chatter reveals how familial expectations and personal ambitions are not built on genuine understanding but are instead adopted arbitrarily from the vague possibilities offered by the “they”.
Through these layered deceptions—of status, identity, and aspiration—the narrator’s encounter with ambiguity is total. The narrator’s encounter with these half-truths reveals how everyday discourse can circulate as if meaningful while concealing a deeper groundlessness. Ambiguity here not only masks the brother’s failures but also destabilizes the narrator’s sense of direction, exposing the fragility of Being-with in the face of disappointment and concealment.